GSDF
Friday, June 29, 2007, 2:38 AM
YAY=D
IM QUITE ME AGAIN!
YAY YAY YAY!
haha.
im used to my lifestyle=D
my lifes almost completely back.
now......
RECESS!
must make a new friend to sit with.
haha
or know mdm libarian and the books better
haha
better than slacking at the stairs there.
whees
and now i think leaving my homework to the last minute rocks=)
keeps me preoccupied in class
YAY=)
i paid attention
except in malay.
aku tengah fikir cam ne i nak rembat si setan babi cakap banyak tuu
yang phm, diam=)
hahs
kay laaaaaaaaaaaaa
I LOVE MY LIFE.
though my soul is still out there, i still have a body right?
its good to be optimistic.
4 example.
lets say..SHE said i killed someone and landed me in jail
-instead of making a fuss,
i cld jolly well say
"AT LEAST SHES NOT HERE WITH ME!''
yay
or if SHE said,
you are a stupid fugly gay prostitute,
i could laugh it off and say...
AT LEAST IM NOT A STUPID, FUGLY, IRRITATING GAY PROSTITUTE!
adasfwryh
Thursday, June 28, 2007, 2:20 AM
ok.
ive been thinking
i shall TRY to be happier. ill take it all as a sign
that im not supposed to be with (tootooot)
ill take it as god doesnt want me to go with (tootoooot)
so i shall be happy and continue living my liiiiiiifeeee
shouldnt stop when ur soul has been taken away rite?
i still got my heart and (very small) brain
might as well putit to full use
higb
, 2:16 AM
uhs hello.
today is a better day.
but still bad
still hated the day
the hated myself
and for some reason, malay made me forget everything.
everything
i was actually happy for a few minutes.
until she asked us to take out our workbooks and do the exercise on "what good friends should be"
WHY OH WHY is the WHOLE topic we did about friends?
so i admit im not a great one
so i admit im not a good one
so i admit im trying to be one
BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
i like karangan
i like the guy
hes so nice
and its not boring
perhaps its cos my life is sooo boring these days
even karangan tutorials are exciting
im lame
you stole my heart, but he gave it back. she stole my laughter, and hong xiang gave it back. she stole my soul and now its gone...forever
asd
Tuesday, June 26, 2007, 3:33 AM
ithinkimtheonlyonewhoknowshowifeel
im losing everyone ou there
fawfas
, 12:16 AM
i feel like dying.
TODAYS THE DAY I FEEL SO SO EXTRA.
i wanted a tsunami to take me away
or the police to arrest me and keep me in jail forever
I FELT SO DAMN EXTRA I ACTUALLY ***********************
im damn sleepy.
last night i got 1 hr of sleep.
i was thinking.
I KNOW IM BLLODY HATED
yeah. i know
so if u hate me just say it to my face.
thank you
you stole my soul, but he gave it back, but she stole it/i feel unwanted.
i AM unwanted
I WANT to be ununwanted
at least wanted by one person?
is that too much?
gsdgsd
Monday, June 25, 2007, 4:47 AM
I HATE YOU
YOU HATE ME
LETS BE ENEMIES
IM TIRED OF YOU
YOURE SUCH A JERK.
and thats the reason im so sick of love songs, so tired of tears, so tired of wishing, you were still here
SO NOW IM HATING YOU FOREVER.
YOU TOOK AWAY MY LIFE THRICE
AND IM NOT GONNA LET IT HAPPEN AGAIN
YOU SNATCHED MY SOUL,
DISTRUCTED MY BRAIN
TOOK ALL THE AIR OUT OF ME
I HATE YOU FOREVER
HEY
Wednesday, June 20, 2007, 3:26 AM
ive just realised how very much i missed the hockey team 0'6 0'5
we rocked.
ive just realised i miss ilmi so much.
i want him.
ive just realised
-im going to msia 2mr, and i havent done homework yet
-a lot of people seem to find excuses not to talk to me, online
-a lot of people dont reply my sms-es
-i think im just going to break into pieces
-i hate life more than i did yesterday.
-i still love him very kuch.
-i am so so stupid
-i want you so badly
-i have the urge to just hug you tight whenever im with you.
-i just want to be with you
-you dont know i crush on you
-you dont know i exist in THAT way
-u only see me as this-not that
-how my heart breaks without you
-how ill do whatever it takes to be with you
(even if it takes me a lot and forever)
-how i really, really want to be yours
-i only have ONE thing in life to live for.
and that is the
chanceofyoutobeminei really want you.no. i need youi love you. youre the only one ill ever want-the only one ill ever need. and no, ill never leave you, or give up on you. i loved you too much.
fasf
Monday, June 18, 2007, 5:10 AM
more india:
www.firstjourney.blogspot.comhaha
crystal dear and jas saw me in no uni
jas said i looked gay
wth
aniwaes.
i think if i can, ill avoid nisa
damn kekok man just now
when i TRIED to start a convo
haha
np was darn
i was the only 1 in my grp dat did sixing drill
haha
NUT LOVES YOU!
and go check crystals blog 4 nice pics of me as spongebob
haha
and i cant believe youll break my heart that way
dasfd
Friday, June 15, 2007, 6:31 PM
BACK FROM BANGalore
its a nice place,really, IF those guys will stop peeing by the roadside.
umm....short post ohkayy!
1st day:
the airport in BANG damn crowded.
went to take a damn cool bus to hotel.
then the hotel damn scary
so in the room, me and crystal<3
joined beds and slept with ALL light on.
hahaha
all the other days:
-biscuit factory;)
free biscuits! hahaz
-it sectors
boring but cool
-UNDERSTANDING THE INDIAN CULTURE
aka. shopping
FUN! ADIDAS AND NIKE SO CHEAP2!
i love love love!
-food
ohkay ohkay laa
I MISS SUFI AND SODA=)
N HUMAIRA TOO
i bitched a lot these few days.
WITH KEITH WONG TZE KIT
hhahazs
umm....
i had a GREAT time.
laught and crapped a lot
hated KJ aka. belinda=/
like damn extra lahh
ahhsaz
uhh
yeah
then went to RAHULS house
he is so cute.
hahaha
geeky kinda cute
hahahz
and yes, everyone agrees that SHE is cute.
hahasz
sec 3s were irritating(girls)
DANIEL AND TIMOTHY RAWKS MY SHIT OUTTA ME!
yay=)
and fiq is so hot in THAT green shirt
haha
>>>>>>>>
at airport. going back:
fiq and gavin found/killed a fly.
big one.
then gavin put it in his SHOELACES
and kept it with him ALL THE WAY IN THE AIROPLANE.
and they called it INDI
so poor DEAD indi
was on the plane.
then like on the travellator, indi was dropped
and never to be seen again.
its funnier in real life peopel
hahaz
did a "suprise" party for wiki and han
haha
and now apparently my nickname is nut:)
han says it nice.
hahahsz
I LOVE YOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
i gave a flower to rahul=)
ooopsz
dont hate me.
ireallyhadfun,andiwanttobewithyouforever.umightknowandyoumaynot.butido.butimnotwillingtoriskourfriendship.illjustkeepthistome,ihopeican,ireallydo.ireallymissedyouthoughivejustseeneuashortwhileago.ireallyloveyou
das
Friday, June 08, 2007, 5:30 AM
lesbian joke i found over the net:
Jamie invited her mother over to her house for dinner.
Over the course of the evening,
Jamie's mom started to wonder if there was more between Jamie and her roommate than met the eye.
She had long been suspicious of her daughter's sexuality,
and watching them interact made her more curious.
Reading her mom's thoughts, Jamie volunteered,
"I know what you must be thinking, but I assure you,
Sandy and I are just roommates."
About a week later,
Sandy came to Jamie and said
, "Ever since your mother came to dinner, I've been unable to find my favorite gravy ladle.
You don't suppose she took it, do you?"
Jamie said, "Well, I doubt it, but I'll write her a letter just to be sure."
So she sat down and wrote:
"Dear Mother, I'm not saying you 'did' take a gravy ladle from my house,
and I'm not saying you 'did not' take a gravy ladle.
But the fact remains that
one has been missing
ever since you were here for dinner."
Several days later,
Jamie received a letter from her mother which read:
"Dear Daughter, I'm not saying that you 'do' sleep with Sandy,
and I'm not saying that you 'do not' sleep with Sandy.
But the fact remains that if she was sleeping in her own bed,
she would have found the gravy ladle by this time
hahahaa
im bored
fsdf
, 5:02 AM
urgh.
not to say that im pissed
but im not saying that im NOT pissed
im in between
my luggage is urgh.
im not good at packing
and im leaving for BANGalore tomorrow.
means im leaving people i love dearly behind
YET going overseas with people who i lovwe DAMN dearly
so i cant say im pissed and i cant say im not right?
hahaha
well, my flight is at 6
yeah
so dont sms me tomorrow after 6 yea!
im leaving soda behind
soda is his nickname=)
oh manz
soda!!!!!!!!
i miss you already
haisz
bye people!
I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY
MUCH
LOVE YOU TO DEATH
miss u loads!
love you once more
love love love love love
SODA!
ahahaz
adasd
Thursday, June 07, 2007, 4:32 AM
im bored
2nd post in a few mins
haha
shall do a survey
who do u think you love most?
******,crystal,gwen,sufi,bla3
who do you love most?(1 only)
shucks. umm...myself?
who will u die for?
a***** and crystal
who will u break ur bones but still live for?
sufi, gwen, my colse2 frens
(im hating this ready)
who do u hate most?
syafie and tiara(not tk NOR sacss one) and ian
why?
syafie and tiara cos.... ian for being a
%!*#^@*^$)@$yay
what u hate most?
uhhhh........
who was the last one u smsed?
crystal
who do u wish called u now?
ilmi
why?
stop asking questions
who do u want to be with most now?
humaira. i dont know why, but i think
wearedriftingapartwhats ur motto in life?suck and not carewhat do u wish for?"statnap" to b back 2gether. long time, but the times we had together was worth it.....
miss you fiq,sha,ril,fin,haikal n yat. *whered u go, i miss you so, its been forever, since uve been gone* i really miss u guys. why did we split?
when was ur most memorable birtday?
10. rollerblading. lidya, shirlyn, everyone was there
hows ur friends in school?
better than pri school.hahaz.
who do u think hates u?
many people. im a wanted woman/girl.
hahahz
why?
cos i can be a bitch if i want to. and oh how *slatnek*
hated me
how they did
hahahhaha
right now, what do u wish for?
someone to go online
have u done something crazy?
yes
what?
used boxers meant for 8 year olds to slepp with a shirt on
-slept on top of the monkeybars
-falling into the fish pond
-running away from people
-many2more
have u made someone cry?
-yes.
who?
in p5. my group. whoa. sey. hahahah
and some other people
do you want to stop this?
yes
then youre lucky. its all over
dfgdfgdgfdgdadsaad
, 4:24 AM
npcc is wow
that was yesterday
we had tough training first...then talk cock sesion
we decided to give nicknames
dexter is dickster
blah3
then sir asked me if i studied a lot
then i say"i dont even study"
then he was like, oh, u looked like u do
i was damn urgh okayy
umm...sorry sufi for ditching u for npcc
it might happen again
so im sorry
yesterady...
stupid.
nocc seniors ask us to do the uniform overnight
so i went out at 11 to buy polish-.-
=D
haha
lame2
today
ADAM, SO SORRY I OVERSLEPT
realy sorry
hehe.
np need to run and run and run
and drills and drills and drills
then band started playing
wth?
not that i dont like them, I LOVE THEM
jus tat we were supposed to shout commands from 1312846184m away
then band played.
wah liao
but i still love them laaaa
then we slack a bit
play dog and bone
oooof.
widia fell twice today
ouch
my team won 21-5/6?
hhaaha
lame lame lame lame lame
hahahahah
yeah
np is loves
to bad hes in ncc and not np
im saddded
i shall stop blogging about npcc.
i can tell thet u r bored
haha
uhh
to the one im loving:i know i love you, but do you love me?to the one i used to love:we are drifting furrther and further.i want things to be the same againto sufi:im sorryto crystal and a*****ill break my arms and my legs for you.
vgfadrfas
Tuesday, June 05, 2007, 5:00 AM
yea2
had npcc today
npcc
haha
drills3
then like drills from 1.45 to 4.30?
but b4 that road safety.
we were damn horney lahh
we buy soft drink then mentos then put the mentos inside
hahahaah
my rootbeer tasted like grren apple beer.
hahaha
then yea
after drills,
slack at school
played/watched volleyball,
soccer and basket ball
with our SIRS AND MAAMS
darn fun lah!
then sir zairil littered
he put his can
but he forgot that the other sir put the can away
then he forgot.
then muuuch later i took it and drank it.
haha
watched band play
repeat darn a lot of times.
i can do the steps already
hhahaah
but theyre good lahh
hahaha
i admit
hahah
then i just slacked like shiiiit
hahahah
then i found out that 2mr got nocc.
U KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS?
NO MALAY!
IM SOOO HAPPY
haooy3!
HOOORAYYYY!
yay!
hahahaha
happy, happy
hahaha
then yeah
hahah
went home, now im here
hahahah
then uhh...what ah...
uhhh
yeah
hahah
nocc, broke my foot, and muscles
hahaah
i dont know why but i think we are drifting further and further apart.i want our friendship to be like it has been before,close and warmnot just a wave or a smile.i love him.
dasdas
Monday, June 04, 2007, 1:24 AM
5 mins for this post.
must hurry3
shit
npcc tomorrow
shit
malay the next
shit
i loist the sampkit list
shit
i dont know when is npcc
shit
NOTHING!
hahaha
my blog is like getting dead people
deader and deader
cos not a lot tags
hahaha
sadness
hahahhahahah
well
went to school today
nothing much
im scared of sec 4s
hahahah
bla3
hahahah
damn short ryt the post!
i shall TRY to uploads pics
=D
i shall TRY to take a pic of ******dear
=D
ilmi smsed me when he was in AUSTRALIA
U THINK IM BLOODY RICH IS IT?
asshollleeee
hahahaha
hey, im darn sorry i chose to be your friend, bitchithinkilovehim,butwhatwillshesay?
Friday, June 01, 2007, 9:30 PM
BOOM.
HELLO!
last few days=CRAZAYYYE!
1st day when sis was in h.k
melepaked at the playground for 3 hours.
got my skateboard and slept on it on top of the monkeybarr.
my bro was there too.
haha
GOT 213457410348120 shades darker. =D
then walked to 7-11 buy slurrpeeeeeeee
next day:
I SLEPT WITH MY BRO.
no,no, dont think dirtaye.
i was on the floor and he was on the bed.
well,
did something crazy!
he wore 15 of his underwears!
then we played wrestling using taekwondo belts=D
then i found his boxers which he HASNT used for a long2 time
SO HE GAVE IT TO ME!
whee! so now i have guy boxers which is too small but i still use=D
then my bro slept NAKED
no nothing
i slept with a shirt and his boxers and pants=)
yeah.haha
im feeling oh-so-lame
last week i was crying, all cos of you, you wanted me, i didnt want you, as i sat there crying, u rushed to my side, u sat with me, silently,for those very few hours. u hurt me once, i was scared youre gonna do it again, but looking back, you were the only one that was with me for as long as i could remember, u cared, u shared, you were my everything, before you shattered me, now u come, crawling back , and im not sure what made u and what youre up to, i might take the risk, and be yours truly, or i might not. that very day, u cried with me, u begged for my forgiveness,i forgave u,the rain poured down,we cried silently, i looked at you, you turned away, i cried, thinking,"thanks for the mmrs. it was goddamn great. i love you, you know thatand thank you my "best friend" for ruining my life, not once, not twice, not thrice, but more.
