Monday, May 12, 2008, 3:45 AM
i dont know what this feeling is,
cos ive never felt this way before,
its not hurt,
its not really pain,
more off disappointment within.
cos you were there
and i am here
i thought we could be more
but i guess it wasnt meant to be?
i wont say love
cos love is a really big word
i just fell into a really big trap.
i had high hopes
but at the same time,
i knew it wasnt gonna come true
somehow, i knew,
what made me ask?
i dont know
when we talked,
theres a deep sonnection
when you laugh,
i cant help but smile and laugh
knowing you are happy.
this isnt a silly crush
where you just go "hes hot!"
and then let go
cos now i know however i try,
i just cant let go the feelings within.
what am i feeling?
what am i doing?
were still young,
theres a lot of time for us, god bless
waiting for just a few more years wont hurt right?
i know youre right,
lets just complete school and see how it goes,
cos when you have a special friendship,
things will never end
and i never want us to end
we may just be friends,
im cool and thats great
ill rather you be a somebody in my life
than a nobody who i dont know
ill rather you be my enemy than not have u here at all
i dont know what im feeling
and its stirring confusion inside
ive never felt this way before...
why is it happening now???
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feeling reallly tired
road run was a huge blow to my physical wellbeing
i came in 15/37 btw,.....
all things aside..
lets just get drunk and stoned.
thanks gwen=)
