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hello.
nadira the awesome will be out of town from 2mr morning to...
29th!
so miss me poeple.
tell me if u want me to say hi to mickey mouse for you ah rytzz.
=)
hong kong here i come=D
and i havent packed yet
p.s.. this is a complaint post about rgs. dont like, dont read=D
wow. rgs.. damn high class.
they sell their own jackets, stationary, even their water is labled with the sch crest and name.
gah. and because theyre so high class..
everything they have/wear/use.. ARE BLOODY high class
look at all the ppl who has an IPHONE.
A LOT.
and suddenly everything my sister has for sch has to be branded.
why? because."if not ppl with laugh and look down on/at me"
cb lah.
shoes must be what-adidas/nike...
sch bag cant come from pasar malam..
stationary must be "higher class" and not the 10 for $3 type..
pencil box must branded..
watch cant be the type u get at roadstalls...
i bet even the underwear has to be victorias secret or something.
like seriously, that sch has a problem.
my sister asked me.."what type of bags do sec sch ppl use?"
and i replied, "you shouldnt ask me. people in MY sch and basically other normal school just wear what is nice. people in YOUR sch..probably wear prada or something"
and we all laughed.
i know its not true.. but hah. still?
and my sis was looking for shoes..
i pointed up some nice ones to her
and my mum said "your sch is neighbourhood sch, its ok to wear things like that. at rgs youre probably gonna be looked down on"
like fine i know theyre high class.
but dont have to look down on my school.
arrrrgh
dude i tell you if they come down to my place next year and laugh at me/
theyre gonna find a fist to their jaw.
watched singapore-vietnam,
arsenal-liverpool.

singapore vietnam:
one word- DISAPPOINTING.
singapore should have won.
would have shouted vulgarities at vietnam if i could.
ARGH can.
soo many good chances.
ARGH.
felt like dying.
yes, football still determines my mood
so my mood?
effed up.

arsenal and liverpool-
one word, two words- REFEREE KAYU
gave arsenal red card.
WTH.
it wasnt even supposed to be second yellow la can?
i tell you, this referees name is..
KELONG BIN DUIT.
argh.
down with 10 men,
score- 1-1.
ARGH
screw today.
big time.
i had been awake for... 26 hours before i crashed and fell asleep while watching tv.
wow finally.
i had ALWAYS wanted to sat up for one whole day
and thanks alvin for accompanying me till 5.30 am=D
whoa my body felt like shit like i had just came back from camp
but minus the muscle ache
and my balance=terrible.
its a nice drunken feeling, i should try it again someday
WAH COW..moooo
RGS, sia.
everything so EXPENSIVE.
and the uniform the pinafore DAMN STUPID.
i like the tkgs better. cos if im not wrong it has a zip.
rgs one have to wear like, over the HEAD. wow.
and it has soo many pleats that go WAY up.
okay,
AND.. the sec ONES....
learnn....
GCE O'LEVEL CHEM AND PHYSCICS!
same book as sec 3/4 TKSS.
wow. good thing is...
any homework i dont know..
I ASK HER!
hahaha
and copy=)
and they also learn...
sec 3/4 PURE geog.
amazing
good ah again.
then she can teach me.
cos im only elect.
llalalalala
theres an advantage to have a smart sis studying there.





yeah. im only jealous=D
but not about the studying part though=/
i baught chiko today!
yay!
hes damn cute and all=D
but beware..he bites!
he bit me...6 times already,
but hes ssoooo cute.
ive never been happier in sooo many weeks=)
its super therepeuthic however u spell it.
its like the whole world is not there and you only focus on not dropping, loosing or killing the hamster,,
hahah

my sister got into rgs.
stupid school.
90% stuck up know it alls.
gah.
no, im not jealous.
mum came back from her Haji today..
went to the airport to feltch her
she went with one luggage and cam back with 4.
amazing.
when me,dad,sis,bro went to kl and baught a lot of things,
we went there with 2 bags and came back with 2 still
great.
shows that women are more organised
compared to my dad who would chuck everything in
yah. llol
looks like its an "accident holiday for me again"
so far this hols...

1)i scraped both my knee badly
2)blister at the back of my left foot
3)blister on my hand
4)sprained my thumb while bowling
5)bit my lip
6)cut my tongue
7)bloody knucles
8)broken heart
9)damaged soul

wow. truly amazing.
next thing to injure..my head.



cherish someone before they leave
hellloooo! had a fab day todayyy
ok. im exxagerating....

morning:
woke up, thanks to my neighbour drill2 here and there
ten went to CLEMENTI to eat lunch., chicken rice
had no mood to eat for reasons..
ate only few spoons of rice.
rice is currently disguting to me.

then went to army museum near discovery centre
damn fun
i was scared
i have museum-phobia.
its dark and freaky!
uhmm. look at all the army stuff and then watched the 4D show!
DAMN COOOl!
the effects were brilliant. screens damn big, sound effects cool,
laser lights, smoke, water droplets and all that
SO COOL. for $3 its damn worth it ($3 is the entry fee for kids under 12) adults are $5, ex ns men and current ns men are free...=D
free advertisement mann
lol
okay.
then went kallang to movie
THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL
LOUSY MOVIE
stupid storyline.
then ice skate
theres a hot couple there DAMNNN!
AHAHAH
then went to eat.....
terrible day.
wasted money on stuff i didnt need at all.
like...sweets.
on a very important diet from rice.
must loose wieght.
then must excercise a lot. loose weight.
get muscles.
i probably wont keep up to my.. whatever this is called.
wow. damn long day today,,
slept at 2, woke up at 7 to go pray at the mosque
sia damn long.
not that im complaining
just saying. heheh
then went home. i didnt want to watch the slaughtering thing..
went to dad side family for lunch.
ate a lot. i feel damn fat
then went to my aunts on my mums side house
fun. hahah
ThEn went to dads mum house
by the end of it... it was around 5. damn tired...
but i got like what, 106 bucks man
suprised.
hahaha
so i naturally didnt complain wearing the baju raya. heheh
=D
dude im so friigin wierd.
hahaha
no point crying over split milk.
milk will one day be spoilt anyway.
no point crying, no point hurting
hes not going to come back anyway
maybe he will.
but im hoping he wont.
sure the first few moments of realisation brings on pain and agony
but later when theres time to thinkthe pain deteriorates slowly,
then comes to a halt.
but the memories and flashbacks bring back the pain
what can we do?
what can i do??
i figured out that if i dont have time to think,
i wont think of her
thats good.
but if i dont think means ill do stupid things and end up falling on the sidewalk and putting salt on the wound instead of antiseptic.
keep busy.
dont let the mind wonder
.then you feel the moodswings.
from total depression to a sudden feel of numbness.
no more pain, the emotion got shut out from the brain.
work me to my limit.
when night falls, i drop fast asleep.
no time to think.
everytime someone leaves me,they take a part of me away.
more often then not, they take away my sense of shame,
my ability to feel pain
as someone leaves,
i get bolder.
daring to try what i usually will not.
i dont care how others see me
im getting numb-er and i cant feel it
i humiliate myself in front of people
but i dont care.
why?
no feeling of shame.
the need for attention
not to draw pity to myself, but to make myself realise im not invisible
then you realise
when my life is this sucky already, nothing else i do can make it suckier
then ill go around asking random people out just to get shunned away
and i laugh. why?
no more feeling left in me besides euphoria
then ill go crazy.
sadistic, finding joy in others pain
.i try to understand how people feel but i cant
.my brain cells are rotting away.
maybe by then ill have no more faith left in me
maybe ill get lucky and someone will kill me
that way, it wont be suicide
but ill be happy
.no more numbness, no more crazy
just me in the freezer, or the grave
entering a different world a different place of more pain
and this time, i cant numb myself because theres no one to leave me.

creep-radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world

And I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
She's running out the door
She's running outrun, run, run, run,run
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
is it so fun to hate someone?
to rip away their soul?
hello sexyy-ies
i am officially back from KL!

first day:

sent mum off to her Hajj
thing then boarded the flight to KL
reach KL.
wow.
the place very nice
then trained to train station
and cabbed to MADARIN ORIENTAL.
i swear i visit that hotel at LEAST once a year.
then we unpacked, spent the day shopping and eating.

2nd day.
breakfast had prata cheese.
very nice then we shopping3
WATCHED TWILIGHT!
omg it was so nice.
i wish i was edward.
hes so handsome and really awesome.
and hes sooo sweet cann?
i love that movie
at dinner at chilis.
they have good food there...
then went back to the room to watch teevee

3rd day
breakfast at some place
then had rootbeer float. nice mann
went more shopping
until damn tired mann
like seriously

what i baught:
lolipops
4 pairs of soxks
one archie comic
2 card game thing
thats all

what my dad baught for me
white and green converse shoes
4 shirts(2 orange one white one yellow)
i really gay sch bag 4 next year=D

OMG IM SO IN LOVE WITH ANTM=D

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