like a knife

Friday, February 27, 2009, 4:12 AM

had NPCC today...
veryvery tired, ok. im exxagerating
but i am tired

cos NPCC+INLINE HOCKEY = PENAT RABAK (tiredness to the max)

campcraft.
pitch tent until hands damn tired and now i got blisters. gosh

MY GROUP (kimberley,jojoh, wencai,earnest,timing and me) managed to pitch the tent in 15 MINS!

considerably short period considering we took 1/2 hour++ the first time -.-"
yay<3

and it was an awesome time too....

Wednesday, February 25, 2009, 11:33 PM

i think i screwed up my common tests.
this year, i studied only the night before the exam.

subjects i can pass:
english
malay
geog elect

subjects i will fail
chemistry
biology
physics
social studies
amath
emath

why?
cos i didnt finish the bio and chem paper
i did the physics graph totally wrong
i didnt do the chemistry graph question
i anyhow did the bio graph questionz and other questions

i hate graphs

I HATE TESTS.

and by the way.
im SUPER pissed that KEVIN and ALVIN did not make it into PW
SUPER pissed.
maybe alvin i can understand
but KEVIN?
zomg.
im annoyed/pissed/irritated..

Sunday, February 22, 2009, 12:06 AM

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Losing Someone
Being Alone
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
Death
http://www.gotoquiz.com/what_is_your_true_fear">What is your True Fear? http://www.gotoquiz.com/">Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

from shutongs blog. i think this is absolutel true.

Saturday, February 21, 2009, 6:40 PM

i finished studying chemistry!
amazing. nyahahahaha
these c.ts are gonna be sooo screwed.
lol
and i realised the emo postson my blog are gone
=(
boooooo.
nooooo
damn.
ok.
nvm.
no mood to blog already luh nowdays
bbye=)

Friday, February 20, 2009, 3:39 AM

hello!
i made a new friend today
his name is haziq
and i made another friend today!
his name is syafiq
and theyre both nice people from sec 1A

hockey today..
i scored a hat trick!
yay
but i got blacker. booo

interview for P.W
i hope we do well.
really.

and i shant be emo anymore
means...
GREEN WATCH TIME!
(for those who dont know, i wear my black watch when im in emo mood,
and green watch when im in good mood)

Thursday, February 19, 2009, 3:52 AM

hello!
it was my mums birthday yesterday....
went to carousel at the royal plaza on scotts
ATE A LOT
until i almost vomitted.
3 times i crashed the main table and 4 times i crashed the dessert table
amazing.
then in the morning i felt like vommiting when i came to sch=/
ok. uhhh

yesh ppl i failed malay
and e.maths.
FAINT ppl, FAINT
and common test are on monday. and i havent studied yet
omg im so terible

but no. ppl,
i DIDNT fail BIO!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009, 2:03 AM

i shall join NS when i grow up
yes i will
i dont care. =)

homework,
homework,
homework,
homework,
homework,
common test.

Monday, February 16, 2009, 4:11 AM

didnt have supplementry today.
so went home early.
and ended up sleeping-.-"
and now im still tired. gosh
anyway...
today..i recieved:

1) chocolate from SHU TONG<3
2) heart with some bear popping out on a stick- OLIVIA<3
3) chocolate from BIANCA<3

all the awesome poeple=D

gosh i have no mood for school.
i really dont.
even * cant cheer me up.

Saturday, February 14, 2009, 9:40 PM

promo test during vday yesterday
wah cow.
so tiring. 4 hours of drills. gosh
i had to retake the test
cos i failed it the first time
because HO was so intimidating i cldnt think properly!
=)
i hope i pass
but if i dont..
I REALLY DONT GIVE A DAMN
its just a friggin rank
doesnt matter much anyway.

but after that was kinda fun
religios class..
there was this HOTHOTHOT ustat(teacher)
fuuuuuuh
if he continues to teach me,
i swear i wouldnt mind going every day

Friday, February 13, 2009, 4:14 AM

update-pre-Vday!!!!!!!!!!!

morning came super early to school to put the stuff on ppls tables...
then EUNICE kept on bugging me cos she thought that i was going to prank her-.-
then ALVIN did come come in time to pass K her present-(im not tall enough to pass it over the fence)
so i got GLENN instead
then the rest of the day pretty much nice
OMG inline HOCKEY!
sia..
i had HOT coaches!
me like!
yay=) bt damn tired
then after sch, went for npcc
OMG i didnt know there was PT or else i think i wouldnt have gone.
still sick=/ breathing problems
i get breathless damn easily
was running around the tech block, by the third round, my body stopped respirating anymore
i can breathe, but no oxygen is actually absorbed by the red blood cell to form oxyhaemoglobin for my body
then by the 5th round, i really couldnt breathe anymore.
lungs all tight and had cramps.
zomg
yeah.

WARNING TO ANYONE WHO MESSES WITH MY VEENA

-TO ANYONE WHO DARES TO DISTURB MY VEENA, MAKE HER SAD OR ANGRY, I TELL YOU, WILL SUFFER HORRIBLY AT ONE POINT OF MY LIFE. THIS IS COS VEENA IS MY BESTESTEST FRIEND EVER AND I LOVE HER VERYVERYVERY MUCH. so make her mad... youwatchout.-

i got:
-a hug from gwen=D
-cookies from jiaying
-chocolate and lolipop from veena,
-awesome stuff from K.
-and a lot of thank yous

aww.. you guys are really sweet<3

Wednesday, February 11, 2009, 4:45 AM

someone "requested" an update.
not in the mood to blog nowaday for some obvious reason

however...

physics--17/20
chem--20/25
a.math--20/25
malay-- 23/50
social studies--(minus 3 marks)
geog--8.5/15

as you can see... i have soo many tests i dont even KNOW which are level or not-.-"
so basically.
my malay is RABAK.
sure die for o levels. seriously-.-"
lousy man. sucks
anyway.
i think being in 3A has MAJOR disadvantages

teachers have soo high expectations of us
psh
its bloody annoying
and getting a 20/25 for anything IS NOT GOOD
its average-.-"
and most average is like... 22/23?
see. its bloody annoying.

Friday, February 06, 2009, 1:58 AM

i swore
i didnt mean to
but i accidenly made eye contact with you twice today.
i hadnt meant it
the first time,
it felt as if time stopped
i saw something in those eyes,
something sad, some secret
i felt pain

the second time i looked into your eyes accidently,
was during the road run.
that time, time didnt stop
but again, i saw something in those eyes
ruined my mood to run

-had inline hockey today
tough but fun
skate until my leg pain and got blister

-fire drill AGAIN
same time as last year

-went to parkway to eat,
then went for road run.
my position was maybe about 50-something, maybe even 60-something

Thursday, February 05, 2009, 1:44 AM

im still missing you,
like the storm misses the rain
like a warm summers day..

i just dont get how u manage to live life
after all youve done

Monday, February 02, 2009, 3:22 AM

to everyone, im sorry for my moodswings.

i looked at myself in the mirror
staring curiously at the glass
trying to find out who i was
but there was no reflection-nothing

i looked at myself from evey angle
still no image to be found
i will never know how i looked like
how the body matches my soul

anger grew, i threw a punch,
the glass shattered to pieces
my knuckles bled and it felt good;
a bleeding hand formed in the mirror

my eyes lit up, lips curled to a snarl
i picked up the sharpest shard of glass
pressing it hard on my cold, hard skin
slicing it slowly, blood continuously flowing

i sliced and sliced, on an insanity streak
the shape of my body appearing on screew
covered in mark, hell i dont care
it felt so good, i was on a high

soon it was time to unviel my face
the excitement in me i could not hide
i took a blade-the devil
and ran it through my face-its victim

i could finally see what ive become
a bloody mess all drenched in blood
i figured out why i felt no love
i was ugly, mangled, a monster

the hate i felt was too much to handle
i said goodbye to my mother and father
overwhelmed by the sudden desire
i stabbed my heart, put out the fire

just then my cellphone beeped-a message
"i love you too" he finally said
too late my love, i second to late,
for i am already dead

sorry if it sucks for it was done in english.

Sunday, February 01, 2009, 5:52 AM

400th post:

10 blades i kind of baught today
for my penknife which i love to play
when every blade gets blunt and dull
i throw it away, pierce it through ur skull.
dont worry, ill have 9 more

no, im not going to kill me over you
but no one said i couldnt hurt myself too
a slash by slash the bloods flows down,
i feel satisfaction, head spinning round
as the blades get blunt, dont worry, i have 8 more

a blade got stained with blood today
the blood of my pain, my hurt, okay?
tissue stained with the dark red ink
dont test my love, im on the brink
the blade gets blunt, dont worry, i have 7 more

i lost a blade in me today,
i cut too deep, what can i say?
you hurt me deep you hit me hard
i still cant find that metal shard
i lost the blade, still have 6 more

i played and played with paint today
drawing tattoos the color all red
today i used up my many blades
my skin torn, mangled to shreds
oh my god ive left with one more

i used the lastest blade today,
i slit my wrists, my throat, my veins
as all the color drained away,
i feel my world becoming dark and gray

my bathroom floor all soiled with blood
may have looked like a red flood
i wish you knew what ive been doing for you
to prove you my love, my dedication so true
and if i dont die with my blade tonight,
dont worry, ill get 10 more when the mornings bright.