like a knife

afda

Wednesday, May 02, 2007, 8:58 PM

ever since i saw your face
i couldnt stop dreaming about you.
ever since i heard you laugh,
your laugh was all i dreamt about,
ever since i saw u smile,
your smile was all i thought about.
i have been denying fir many months now
my heart just doesnt know what is right.
it seems like i loved you too much
but everything went wrong
i asked you a few months back.
but u rejected me.
what you didnt know was that not only did u break my heart
u ruined my life
a few months passed.
u played with me
u made it seem so obvious.
but by that time,
i knew your tricks.
i knew that u have
and evil heart
but yesterday,
when i saw your face,
i saw the reaction
when i told you that i didnt like you
anymore
i saw no grin, i saw no smile
i heard no laughter,
i smelt no joy
i swear
i swear,
i saw the sadness in your eyes
no tears there might be,
but the look of your face
says everything
yesterday,
you made me laugh.
u made me laugh,
till i lost my voice.
but after the time,
i said i didnt love you
u didnt laugh at all
silence
no word came out
of your mouth.
i looked at you,
you looked at me,
and i thought,
this might be the love ive never had
but i knew ive spoilt it.
spoilt a hot guys heart
i knew he had a girl
but he recently broken up.
and now that he needed
someone else.
i crushed him
he was so hot
when he was smiling and laughing
he was just so understanding
he was the one who took the time
to listen to me whine
to listen to me rattle on
but when he rattled,
i listened,
but i felt nothing
but now.
when i think back.
the time he pushed me in the pool
the time he stole my things,
and stole my phone
the long time ago
when he crushed on me
when i crushed on him.
but we didnt know
now i hurt him.
but he hurt me 1st
is love really all about hurt??

kayy
malay later
need to go to school

i stayed up all night
last night
thinking if i could ever be with you

lesson learnt:
malay sucks
and malay sucks
and malay just sucks
everything sucks
everything sucks
life sucks

islashedmyhandrealisingwhatihaddonetoyouanddonetomeiwasinthewronganduwereintheright

im so,so,sorry