Saturday, March 08, 2008, 4:39 AM
youre getting me all confused
i dont know what im feeling
what i feel towards you
when i dont see you, in neutral, i feel what i usually feel
but the sight of your wonderful, beautiful, body
makes me wonder, question myself instantly.
do i deserve to even fight and try to go for someone like you?
or shall i stick to other people?
to be with you, it will be a sin
a sin to my parents who doesnt want me dating
till 18
i sinned before, and im not sure i want to do it again
youre just so hot. hot sex appeal.
yeah i dreamt of sexing u once
but im not sure what that means
is it love?
or is it desire?
or is it just a wat to show off?
i dont know. only god has the answers
you looked into my eyes today
you held my hand
im sure u fe;t nothing
but i felt a whole lot of confusion inme
i held your hand, stare into youre eyes a little longer
beforei let go of your hand, i thought, "what a wonderful person, full of courage"
and as i saw you leave,
a little bit of my soul left with you
everytime you go,
you leave a lot of painful questions in me
questions i may never get the answer to, never
the next day, ill get over you,
but knowing ill se you again,
gets my heart to beat unevenly
quickly and slowly at the same time
but now when youre gone
i vow never to think of you again
but that night, no matter how hard i try,
ill get depressed, thinking of you
you drove me to become who i am today
youre the one driving me to what i will be
youre my role model.
youre the one i love
yet, i dont know. i like many
im attracted to many,
but to you, i think, its love
love brings joy and pain, but more pain than joy
i never felt anything when i got into one
cos it was attraction
but with you, with you, its not the same
i feel different,
i feel jittery,
nervous,
jumpy, emo, depressed,
yet absolutely happy, elated,
to see you, to be with you
you give me my emotions,
you taught me how to feel
i feel ive known you for life
but it seems longer than that
its really really a huge confusion
i dont know what to do
everything i do, i think of you
this isnt a made up tale.
it comes from the bottom of my soul
which you have ripped apart
slowly and painfully
you dont know my feelings
you have no idea what i feel
you take me as an average
i tihnk youre the best,
i think the world of you
i want to be with you'
yet i dont want to be with you
i dont know how
im not sure why
but i think im falling for you
really, really, falling for you
not the same way i fell for him.
i love you
but i hate it so.
ihope,ihopeyoufeelthesamewaytoo,butiguessnot
