Tuesday, July 15, 2008, 12:51 AM
have u ever felt so screwed up before???
you think you know the certain someone,
when in fact, you actually dont
and all that was in front of you was merely an illusion.
have u ever felt hurt, joy, pain, relief, confusion, and crushed all at the same time?
have you ever called someone a jerk and really meant it?
i met this guy.
i thought he was good
i mean, he seemed good, he was actually good, but why did he become blackspiderman from spiderman in a blink of an eye?
unless this is some sort of wierd story, i dont think its nice
this guy....basically,
was what my ideal guy wuld be like
something along that
then,
waited and waited for him
the days, the 6 months you wait
the whole 6 months where you keep wondering, and wondering
then one day,
he just smss you, "i never meant to crush you physically, just emotionally. since february, about the time you gave me that letter".
how would you feel, huh?
then suddenly,
he gives one lame excuse "i need to help my brother find his homework"
its really nice, really.
not.
then.... i felt like... kind of used???
so i messaged my two best friends in the world
and one replied, the other called back
the one who called back,
he helped a lot.
we talked and talked and talk.
it was as if he understood.
it was really nice,
knowing someone cares
who would actually listen to your rants
then, he told me some things,
that made me wonder.
really wonder.
like..
was it true that he was really being a jerk?
or was he just being sarcastic?
i dont know
but that night
by best best friend invited me to watch a piano concert he was performing in
it was really nice of him
usually, it would be a 'whatever' kind of thing
but then, it seemed.
really nice.
basically, i felt like a pregnant woman.
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gwens bdae is 2mr.
BETTER REMEMBER AHHH.
