Saturday, July 26, 2008, 4:47 AM
i got kicked at and punched at and bullied by my FRIEND who sat next to me today
really hurt
but didnt want to hit back ahh
theyre only playing anyway
pfft
HONG XIANG
im so sorry i cant make it for ur concert tomorrow. i know it means a lot to you, but i cant make it. so sorry. break a leg! by the way, mr, i may just tell you who i like one of these days=)
TO WHOEVER CONCERNED:
heyy,
im sorry i ever doubted you. im sorry that i ever thought you were a jerk, you were probably just pissed at me for that moment. im really sorry i blindly accused you. you deserve much better. and thats why i didnt want to take things furthur cos i really didnt love you by that time., you were right, now that i think back, you making wait long. it was a test to see if my love 4 u was real., i thought it was, but it wasnt. i know you didnt want any lame, unsuccessful, unloving relationship. and youre right, were still young. live first, worry later... i love you as a friend
to youknowwho
and i sacrifised my soccer, my hockey, my boy clotes, everything 4 u.cant you see that cant you see thatyou have taken away all the happiness that i had till i had to find new ones? sure, i gave you a lot of problems and created problems.but its just how i feel, i dont feel comfertable with who i am now, what you have made me to be,you made me wear pink shirts, stop wearing black clothes, stop wearing caps, i just did it cos u wanted me to. not what i wanted to.sometimes, i thnk you dont understand me at all. dad, u 1st said u wanted to get me a new soccer shirt. arsenal jersey. you flew me to cloud 21841024.then you said youll buy me the ladies version, then i was estatic. but a few days ago, you told bro that you would buy him a new chelsea shirt.and u simply turned around and said"girls dun nid laa ehh?" you got me so crushed you know that? it may be a stupid reason or so, but youseriously got me falling. you tink that bykeeping those things away from me youll make me change?i dont think so.ill just grow up the way i want to be. drive sports cars, and all. im not going to be a banker or what, im gonna join the army. then youll loose me and never will see me again,why cant you understand me and the way i am?dont you know that you cant change me? i am the way i am. not some stupid girl who sits down doing chores. im up and raring to go. when were you born? the 1st century? they say the teen years are the best, i think not, you took away my fun, and me figuring out by myself who i should be,you really think it would work? i went there just to shut you up. im gonna be who i am gonna be. i dont care, im not gonna marry anyone. you made me feel that way. i dont deserve o let others share my heart with meyou ruined my life and what meant most to me. i should have not been born. i would have been a better spirit then alive anyday
