Monday, January 19, 2009, 1:21 AM
im abstaining myself from yelling out certain things right now.
if i could, honestly, i would rather live in school.
its more fun and theres no one to nag at me.
adults always say..."Teenagers these days are so (word)"
and most of the time, these words are negative.
people only look at the negative parts of us.
i shall name a few examples:
1) Sam used to get F9 for his subjects. soon, he gets.. D7.
but does anyone praise him for his improvement? maybe the teachers would because theyre paid to do so. but his parents?
im sure they wont notice the improve in marks.
most probably they will start screaming their heads off because he still failed.
and he will get demoralized and drop to F9 again.
2) How about all the kids that are "wild"?
Sure they come home late and reek of smoke.. Parents scold them, yell at them, beat them.
it would be nice if one day, they could just welcome their kid and be thankful that they actually went back home safe and sound. so what if they get cancer or die early. its their choice. yell at them, no point.
3) I went home today with my skirt "shortened" but was still of acceptable length. Just walked home from PP, tired and looking forward to just relax. But what happens when i get to the door? Get scolded. yelled at because..."my skirt is getting shorter". its not short. So obviously i was pissed. Yelling mom+a pissed me= a very pissed me. So i wonder... maybe she should be thankful that i actually am wearing my school uniform properly, and wearing the skirt and not parading around in my underwear. Because after getting yelled at..i felt like doing that. Running around in the playground outside with only underwear on.
First, it was "no shorts".. fine, that was acceptable.
Then, "skirt too short".
Next?? "buy a sch skirt that touches your ankles?"
4) After school-which is positively stressing because of the HIGH standards that teachers and parents set. The piling amount of homework, plus the need to revise for all the upcoming tests that seem to be never-ending and not to mention all the long hours of supplementry and CCA. We come home to relax, chill.. but all we get is some b.s from parents that we have to "do our homework" done? "revise" done? "Are you sure you revise? then i expect A1 from you"
so we talk back "you take the exam lah! see whether you get A1"
and we get sent to our room.
maybe one day, they will see it as
"thank goodness my child is enrolled in a school, has an education, even though its secondary school" because many kids out there dont have proper education.
cut us some slack.
and at least we attend school and not cut it. Not to say that we pretend to go to school but actually is at some LAN gaming place or something.
Even if we are there...just thank God were alive.
If you wish we rather die?
then let us do whatever we want.
5) Parents are always telling us that they sacrifice a lot for us. Yes, i can understand that. and can see that. But they never seem to notice that we sacrifice for them too. Just because we are younger and are "children" doesnt mean were your free labour. Plus the homework and all.. They still want us to do things like "Make me a cup of milk".."put back the phone".. "fix the clock".."pick up your brother". its simple yes.. and we can do it. But we have a choice Not to do it. but we do it anyway.
Parents also say that.." All i want from you is to study hard and be successful"
what they really mean is..
"i want you to top the class"
"i want you to go to good university"
"i want you to come home early every day"
"i want you to attend all these tuition"
"i want you to dress like a nerd so that you look presentable to my generation but look terrible to those of our own"
"i want you to study instead of listening to music"
"stupid tv. waste your time only. do something more worthwile"
"Dont waste food"
"Do your chores"
and thosse unspoken rules like..
"after dinner is family time. if youre not there, you die and i will nag at you"
and how about those ironies?
like...
"i dont want to nag at you but..." (starts to nag)
"its all for your own good" (but in the end it makes us worse)
"Its about what you want" (its about what they want for us because they wont agree to what we want)
"come,lets have a little friendly talk" (its a long talk and someone ends up crying)
and those words that dont need to be said
"sometimes i think i dont know you anymore" (cos you dont take the effort to)
"since when have you started liking(band,clothes)???" (since you stopped paying attention to me
"sometimes, i feel that you dont appreciate me" (we do. but you dont appreciate us)
"i love you" (thank you for doing that for me..)
"good job" (we know theres a hidden meaning in there-better not slack)
we all need a happier world.
-that was long and i dont expect any of you to finish reading every single word.-
mom,dad, i still love you very much, but you dont understand the way i work.seriously.. we need a better world. not a perfect world. thats impossible..
